Sunday, March 27, 2011

Home Sweet Home

I just got home last night from almost 5 days of house/pet-sitting, and I realize I have learned a few valuable lessons from it. For one, damm it's good to be home! HA! 
As I get older, I am finding it harder to be gone from home for too long. I house/pet sit for another friend sometimes, but its usually only for a night or weekend, and I think that's about all I can do anymore. If I was single, I think it wouldn't bother me. But now being married, having my own animals, house,etc...makes it hard to be away. And it makes me grumpy, mad, and miserable while I am gone. Not at whom I am doing the favor for, but at myself. And I seem less tolerant of being at someone else's house, their animals, their bed, their everything. Makes me feel not so nice, and I think I am usually a nice chic. So lesson learned here, if its more then just a night or weekend, next time I will have to politely decline.
I was amazed at how damm good it felt to be home. Even in just my little modular home, it's home. Where my hubby is, whom tho I sound like a wimp, I don't like to be away from too long. Where my kitties are, who are my babies. My own bed, my own things, my own everything. I think we as human beings, have almost an unconscious knack, for taking even the smallest things for granted in our lives. Take a minute, and really think about that. About the things you are most grateful for, the everyday things we have..but don't take the time to appreciate. I for one, am very appreciative for all I have.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Judgements and Curiosities

I normally try not to be one of those judgemental people, who most people don't like (including myself), but lately it has "become me" it seems.  It probably doesn't help that I am unhappy with myself currently, and not sleeping well. While being in this judgemental state, it has also brought about a lot of curiosity kinds of questions. Step into my cluster of a your step, ha!
Is it an automatic thing that when you get a lot older, that you fit a certain "look" and "way"?  For example, why do so many older men have a limp in their step? Do you have to have the traditional short, "round" looking grey hair that you get washed and curled at the salon once a week? Why so many ugly tennis shoes and tube socks, why the sweaters and the kakhi's?  What's wrong with using seasonings in your food?  Do you lose all taste and style, do you just not care as you get to a certain age, its just about affordability and comfort?  I know that as you get older things change. Hearing and eyesight doesnt work as well. Many can't work and make the money they used to. Wake up earlier. Less hair. Bones get weaker. Don't eat much. Get grouchier. Now, let me retract a bit with the normal nice me and say...I love the older generations. They are the past, they have the experience. They have lived a full life with lots of memories. So my best guess, you just don't give a crap about some of that stuff anymore. It becomes little stuff that is irrelevant. Which is ok, it makes sense. But I will say, I'm hoping I don't conform to the "norm" on all of this. :)  Next....
The number of bad drivers seems to increase all the time. I really almost hate driving anymore. I never really was one of those kids that said "I can't wait till I get older", I knew it wouln't all be fun and games. So when I started driving, I knew it would be an interesting endeavour...but for awhile I didnt mind and it was kinda fun. That time is gone.  You got the tailgators; who even if you are going the speed limit or sometimes a bit over and you are in the correct lane, have to ride your butt. You got the slowies, who can't go the speed limit for the life of them, gosh forbid you go the legal posted limit. And you have the people who I don't know what to call; who drive in the fast lane but are going slower then the speed limit, then if you ride their butt (because they are in the wrong lane and speed) then they may get over to other lane but then speed up as if to say "screw you" for no real reason (except to maybe be jerks). There's the ones who don't use turn signals till the last second or at all, the one's who "California Roll" (altho I admit I am guilty of this), the one's who brake check every second, the one's who use 2 parking spots just because they are rude or are in a hurry. Oh my, the list goes on and on!  I'm not saying that I am a wonderful driver; I know that I too suck at driving sometimes, but hopefully not regularly. Notice I said "hope". Ha!
Re-reading my above rantings, I feel I sound so cranky and bitchy. I suppose sometimes it's hard not to get sucked up in the chaos of life, and all its trials. Perhaps I am just having a few weeks of being overcome by it all. Perhaps I won't re-read and edit, and just let it out. Thanks for or no one.... :)

Monday, March 14, 2011

Clutter of my mind

I can be driving home from work, and thinking about the day's events.  Sitting there watching T.V, and zoning out with all the things I see on the news or hear people say. Laying in bed at night, with thoughts of to-do's and what-if's and can-I's.  One way or another, my mind is constantly filled with all the thoughts racing around. Yet, trying to sit down and write daily like I want to, seems to be a struggle. 
How can I make my marriage better, and consistently put effort into it growing and building. Finding a way to get along with my stepkids (mostly my stepdaughter) and be kind and patient and take deep breaths. Ways to FINALLY put myself on my own list (and at the top of the list too), and work on doing things I like and getting healthy because I deserve it. How much I enjoy my two friends; and while sometimes it seems like I have no friends really, I barely have time for the two I have and I love and enjoy both of them, I need to see them more and girlie time is definetely good for my soul. How run-on sentences, where I ramble on, is not proper english. LOL.  I need to take time here and there, to sort out this cluttler of my mind. And, I need to get a voice recorder to help with this. HA!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

To Lent or Not

I was driving to work this morning, and they were discussing on the radio the topic of giving up something for Lent.  Now, I'm not religious so therefore I don't participate. And I say nothing against anyone's religion either, to each his own. But the conversation was interesting to me.
Lent is a time of sacrifice for Jesus, roughly fourty days long, although I believe some religions calculate a bit different. Traditionally, they are fourty days of fasting, whether from food or activities. Some say its a time to give up their vices. Some spend extra time praying to God, and spending time in Church. Fasting during lent was more severe in the ancient days, but generally meat, eggs and dairy products were forbidden. Some do no sweets (which would really be hard for me). In some ways little has shifted; people still take time out from devoruing meats,dairy, sweets. But in other ways, a lot  really has changed.
The radio program this morning brought up the topic of how some people believe that giving up Facebook for those fourty days, counts during the Lenten period. It was quite the discussion, and as with everything in the world, quite varying opinions on it. To a lot of people that was considered cheating, that the practice of staying away from the modern world we have grown so accustumed to, just doesn't count during the religious time. Or does it?  Some people can't avoid checking their Facebook ten times a day, its become an additction. Like the internet in general I think.  Could you do it?  Could you disable your Facebook account, or not check your email, or not google something...for fourty days?  Or should you stick to the no meat, eggs,dairy or sweets? Ifyou think about it, if people ate like they did during the times they speak about in the bible, perhaps there wouldn't be so many health issues today Interesting times we live in these days.  Have we really made progress, or just become eaten up in this social space?  Whatever you think on the topic; if you have enough willpower to go without something (for your beliefs) for fourty days...good for you for sticking to it. Mind over matter, right. It's a good way to practice selflessness, eh.

Spring is Springing

This winter has been pretty mild in Colorado in my opinion; hardly any snow and while its been cold it hasn't been severe really. Yet, I think many of us are feeling the spring itch. 
I was so excited to see tulips in the floral dept at the grocery store yesterday, I love the spring flowers! Potting soil and manure is bnow being sold outside stores. St Patty's Day shamrock plants are out, which are so cute. Iris's, Tulips, Daffadoils ...are all starting to come up. You can almost see the trees just waiting for their cues to start blooming away!  The grass is still brown, but it is just March. Spring is my favorite season, then Fall. The beginning and the end.
It's hard to NOT have it brighten your mood; just seeing all new life beginning again. Trees starting to get  green on their buds, flowers starting to peak through the rubbish, the days of blue skies are more frequent, and the birds even start to do some chirpimg. Kids starting to play outside more, being able to take walks in the fresh air with a friend, the bikes and skateboards getting pulled out of the closet. Mmmmm Yeah, I think I smell some spring coming on!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

The EveryDay Things

My husband and I recently talked about moving out of state, mainly so that he would have a better chance of getting promoted in his career (other states are less competitive). For me, this was both scary and kinda exciting. I have always lived in Colorado, and I love it here. But I support my husband and we discussed how it would be nice on one hand to have a fresh start somewhere new to us, etc. But, he would have to leave his kids here with their mom. We talked about how the time with the kids would actually probably be more quality time; when they visited for breaks and such he could take off work and actually spend time with them and do stuff. That it wouldn't just be this mundane everyday stuff; come home, eat dinner, homework, T.V, go to sleep, and start again. And it got me thinking....
I think we take for granted these everyday things. These moments of hearing their laughter over a silly commercial or Dad being a goofball. Helping with math homework. Listening to singing coming from the backseat in the car. Having a war with the nerf guns. Watching basketball games, choir concerts where its just pretend singing, quick kung fu moves at practice. Pushing each other into the swimming pool, cool hiking trips, learning to skateboard. Watching them grow up, witnessing these small little moments that are "everyday things"...are actually special moments in time. In their life, in them becoming their own little special people. That we could stay and be part of.  That just isn't worth missing to further a career.
Needless to say we aren't moving now. Perhaps later on, we can revisit the idea when the kids are older. But for now, I have no doubt in my mind that this is a decision that won't be regretted.  
Take a minute, and think of all the everyday things you might be taking for granted. Moments overlooked. Moments not even noticed. I know I'm thankful for the everyday things, that make up this crazy life.

Friday, March 4, 2011

The "Kids these days" Debate

Grumblings about the next generation has been an ancient tradition, in which many of us engage, including myself. Socrates observed that children were more disobedient, had less respect for authority, and had poorer manners, than his generation. Wow, now doesn't that sound familiar?! Although much has changed since the times of ancient Greece, complaints really haven't. I complain about these exact things when it comes to my step kids.
How many times as a kid did you hear..."when I was your age"?  Followed by eye rolling and a heavy sigh from you.  Was the world really perfect then? Back then they did drugs, smoked cigarettes, had sex, were out of control. Every generation has their vices. Kids these days have more in common with kids from those days then most people originally thought.The current generation of young people seems self entitled, cocky, lazy, and yes less manners and less respectful. You turn on the news or read the newspapers; its news on kid shooting at school, teen suicides from bullying, obesity, younger murderers who seem "perfectly happy and normal".  It's Facebook, and sexually explicit and profanity in music videos, violent video games. What comes after cell phones, internet, and all other social media? If the internet went down, phones out, cable off...would most be completely lost?  Some worry that the danger is not for our children to lose ability to do certain tasks, but to maybe lose their ability to think for themselves. Someone said "we're preparing a world of wifi connected zombies".   These things are not just teenage, but societal. Issues indicative of the era in which we live. We all have outside influences to blame.
And while I love my Facebook and cell phone as well, I'd like to hope I would be able to survive in this day and age without all that technology, if needed.  I try to remember that kids these days are different, that its harder and not the way it used to be, even from the mere 10 years ago that I was in school. It seems it requires a lot more patience, a lot more deep breaths.  And while "kids these days" do have; less manners more disrespect, and are more self-entitled...they are also the future, and we have to carry the hope that they will pull through this era....better and more knowledagable then we. :)

Thursday, March 3, 2011

The Five Senses

Who knows why I'm thinking of this topic. I think its because I was setting up my blog settings and there is an option that lets me list things I like, favorites, etc. And it got my thinking....
My mom has teased me for years that I "smell everything" does sound pretty funny I admit.  But think about, think about your five senses. Touch, Taste, Sight, Hearing, and Smell. While the sense of smell is probably my favorite, how do you really pick? 

Touch: someone's arms around you, hot/cold, sex, petting an animal, feel of clean sheets, etc
Taste: a yummy dessert, a home cooked meal by Mom, taste of someone's kisses, a good wine, etc
Sight: a beautiful sunset, watching the flowers bloom in the spring, the colors of fall leaves, seeing your children's smiles, reading a good book, etc.
Hearing: children's laughter, listening to a funny joke, the rain pitter-pattering on the roof, the sound of someone saying I love you, etc
Smell:  clean laundry, fresh cut grass, my Mom, my husband's neck, puppy breath, lotions, shampoos, flowers, fresh air, rain, etc etc....( I could REALLY go on and on about this sense, LOL)

Of course their is yucky stuff that you can touch. taste, see, hear or smell...but so many of us take advantage of even having these fabulous sensors, dont cha think?  I for one, LOVE them all!

What's your favorite? And what are some of your favs of each sense? Hmmmmm.......

Stepping out into Blog world...

I feel both exhilirated and anxious at the same time. I have a million things running through my mind right now. Am I silly to be sitting here writing this? Do people actually gain anything by blogging?  I would love to become a pro blogger for a side job. Although had writer's block not taken me over all those years ago in high school, perhaps I would already be pro. Either way, I know it feels good to be writing again. Even if just for lil ole' me. :)

I was thinking about something Cameron Diaz said once:
"I write constantly, but only in my journals. I have three of them: one for travel, one for home, and one I write in before bed. But the last thing I want is other people reading it..... What's really fun is reading your journal, like a year later, or even a month, and realizing how much you've changed. You're looking at something you said, something you really meant at the time, and you're like, 'I can't believe I ever really believed that! I am such an asshole!' I think that's the greatest thing about growing up...."

Makes me laugh.  While I totally relate on one hand, on the other hand...I would love for people to read my posts and just laugh, if nothing else. Or be able to relate, I think we all like being able to reach out and connect with another living being.  I think this will be fun.